lost

I really want to just sit here and vent tonight but im not really sure what i want to say. Just because i have so many things running through my head righ tnow. Me and Emily had a talk online tonight because emily has dated billy and i have dated bryan and they are both twins so we figured that we could help each other. I think it may work but we are gonna sleep on it and talk about it tomarrow. You see the problem is is that they always think that they are right. And when they start to think they are right they go to their father and he tells them that they are right whether they  are right or not and that doesnt help at all. His dad makes every girl out to be a wicked caniving little bitch and they say that he doesnt do that alot or do that purposely but they never ever apalogise so i take that as they alwayss think that they are doing is right because their dad never tells them that they are wrong. They dont know how to treat girls. Their mom (no exaggeration here) is a crazy psycho. So it makes it kinda obvious that their dad would hate relationships let alone his sons being in one.  His dad says that all women hate them working on cars and basically makes us look like these horrible people. When i tell bryan that i want to spend time with him instead of him working on his truck, his dad will say somthing like “all women are the same….they want you to stay out of the garage and dote on them” their dad really is nuts too now that im writing all of this down. I was just thinking that i want people to read this journal but i guess if you dont read this section because its too long that thats ok because i hate bitching, its just that sometimes i have to. I dont like bitching to bryan because he always says that im picking on him and i get nothing accomplished. I litterally get NOTHING accomplished, which isnt good because a HUGE thing in a relationship is communication and if you cant communicate, you might as well break it off because you wont work anything out. Every time me and bryan get into an arguement he will either tell me that im right to just not argue anymore (which doesnt help) OR he will run away to his dads for the weekend and not call me at all until one of us breaks. And if we ever break up he always calls me a week later to say he wants to go out to eat or he misses me or somthing. Which missing me is one thing, but needing me is another. Im ready to either be single and meet other people, or seriously get this boy figured out because i cant do this anymore. There are so many problems that i have with him its just that idk if i can confront him about them because it doesnt help, it seems to make it worse. Any thoughts? If you have any that would really help, i need advice because im literally stuck. 😦

” If you do not give right attention to the one you love, it is a kind of killing. When you are in the car together, if you are lost in your thoughts, assuming you already know everything about her, she will slowly die.”
– Thich Nbat Hanb